Death for a thought

Blade in hand, gun in sight, her I sit wondering how I got into this mess. The knife is long and painful, yet it satisfies your need, while the gun is one of the few ways out. which do I choose some will say, while most drop the knife, and throw the gun away, yet still others will open them self or end it forever, but here I sit wondering what to do, am I a coward or a man, am I crazy or sane, I will never know for this is a choice I will not make because no matter what it is it will be wrong in your eyes and mine.